Ellen Loudon

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Probably because I wasn’t well, most likely because I was exhausted at the end of the first Trinity College year, and definitely because I am distracted by the tennis at Queens I am have found it difficult to concentrate this week. I am preparing my head for the writing of the PhD by doing essential filing, sorting out books, preparing the enormous bibliography and doing plans for chapters. Although I have approx 45,000 words they are not all in the right order so I am trying to find the most efficient way to re-arrange as well as plan re-writes. I also want to complete the first draft of the 2nd case study this week. No pressure then.

I have a weird relationship with pressure. I need it to get stuff done but I resent it and get very cross when I have to live long term with it. It makes me feel like I need to rebel and kick back. To be honest I have got to the point with this project where I need the satisfaction of completion so the pressure to move it on is both internal and external. I need it to get done for personal satisfaction and the University of Liverpool need me to get it done because if don’t I ruin their research statistics. So, bring on the pressure. Fighting talk.

If you fancy a prayer project please could you put in a few words about my words – I am really struggling with my dyslexia at the moment and am lacking confidence with useful (long and complicated) words. Thanks. xxx


Written by ellenloudon

June 14, 2007 at 11:10 am

Posted in PhD

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  1. Will be praying for you Ellen!

    Lucy Wright

    June 14, 2007 at 1:14 pm

  2. thanks lucy. xxx

    Ellen Loudon

    June 14, 2007 at 1:51 pm

  3. me too! Keep going!X


    June 14, 2007 at 5:06 pm

  4. Will be thinking of you, and hoping the words will arrive and behave themselves.

    John H

    June 14, 2007 at 5:47 pm

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